Your sister hates your father as much as you do.

Yesterday I decided to have her over for dinner since she hadn't tasted any of my cooking yet, but afterwards we got on topic of her new tattoo. Essentially she wants a half sleeve that she's calling "Daddy's blue eyes" where she's going to have a portrait of a girl surrounded by chess peices falling away from her. Basically every single piece having some sort of meaning behind it: King = Our father, Queen = Our mother, Bishoup = The courtroom, Knight = The police, Rook = Jail. Then she's going to have 3 pawns to represent her, her future kids, and me...I told her she should make my pawn black for obvious reasons. Then under the bottom of it are going to be words saying "Forgive but never Forget." The theme being that our father promised to teach her chess, but since he passed away before he got out of prison he was never able to. She won't learn it and doesn't want to anyways. Ironically enough it was his birthday yesterday which I guess I never bothered to learn, and she was going on about all things she hated or was unhappy with about the situation. In a round-about way she said that he should've been executed for what he did

I don't know where I stand on that statement...

I always try not to think about it, but when I do I always seem to get angry about it. Now that I know my father hurt my sister in this way it certainly doesn't it help any either. I kind of just nod my head over it and try not to get too emotional...both of us have too much on our plates to be worrying over shit like this. It's a dicotomy, where I really don't want to express my opinions on the matter to my family...considering my Aunt and Grandmother support him unconditionally and I don't want to be the one to break their hearts. But with my sister's tattoo she's going to have to explain herself, and she told me outright that she's going to lie to them regardless.

I guess, if anything...these thoughts are being brought on by the upcoming family picture. My mother is getting screwed out of everything she has because of the divorce whilst my little brother and little sister are being spoiled rotten by their fuckin' father, my fuckin' stepfather. It's like she has no control of the matter and tries to discipline them and make them do their homework, but now they're going behind her back and calling her a bitch n such. All of it is just so fucking stupid.

*sigh*

I just wanted too get this off my chest, I'm going to go smoke now